Have I said on here lately how grateful I am to have a job and an office to go to? Seriously. My job may be really high-stress and not much fun sometimes, but I am so appreciative that I have a job. I can't put it into words properly.

These are such deeply unsettling times. No one knows how long the virus will run unchecked or how many lives will be lost. Our govt. seems more interested in spreading propaganda and downright lies than it is in trying to figure out the best way to handle this and protect people. Did you see that Mitch is saying the govt. was distracted by the impeachment and that's why it didn't focus on the virus? Are you fucking kidding me? How dare he? I swear, I am going to learn how to, then dance a jig WHEN (not if) that asshole loses his re-election. In fact, MY CAT will join in and dance a jig himself when it happens, because even though he's an asshole himself, he won't tolerate that level of assholedness! I just hope that GOP doesn't try and use the current crisis to delay the election in November. That. Can't. Happen.

Unemployment is skyrocketing and, let's be honest, there really aren't any jobs out there for me should I lose the one I have. Apart from delivery services and the like, everything else has dried-up. While I would do any job, what chance do I actually have at getting one of those jobs? The job market is flooded with better qualified people than this middle-aged woman with no experience.

At home, I only have the news on when I'm getting ready for work at 4am, but at work it's on all day. You can't escape it. It's only when I get home in the afternoon that I have some peace... but after a day filled with bad news, it's hard to turn it all off mentally. Even when I try and distract myself.

It's a scary time. My parents are an 8-hour drive away and are considered vulnerable. Even if I were to go to where they are, I'd have to be quarantined for two weeks before I could see them for fear of getting them sick in case I somehow get it and turn into a carrier. I only have one other semi-close family member near me and I haven't heard from them once. I sent a text today, we'll see if I hear back.

I always try really hard to be positive and not let all of this horror (or any other bad stuff) get to me, but sometimes, like today, it does. It really does.

Things WILL get better they have to.