I'm probably not going to express this stuff very eloquently, but I'll try.

I don't mean to sound dramatic (for once), but I am truly worried about the state of affairs with the government, our tenuous grasp on the rights of ALL American citizens and the incomprehensible support hatred is gaining in this country.

I'm horrified that the racist, sexist, bigoted actions people are getting away with have somehow become acceptable and normal. It. Is. Not. Right.

Everything that has been fought for by our parents, grand parents and great-grandparents is slipping away. Is segregation going to come back? Will women and minorities lose the right to vote? Will the right to choose get tossed? Will gay marriage be repealed? A year ago, I would have scoffed and said "no way, never happen", but in a Trump world, I just don't know any more. Everything is topsy-turvy and ugly. Trans rights are being taken away as I type, minorities are too afraid to report crimes against them for fear of deportation. Who or what is going to be next? That is an all too real, frightening question!

I get so frustrated when I look at the results of simple poll questions on presumably liberal websites and the results are far too close, when they should be decisive on the side of (what I feel) is right. Questions similar to "do you feel the president is doing a good job responding to the events in Charlotte?" The results were something like "Yes - 47%, No - 43% I don't know 10%". WTF??!!!??

What can we do? What can "I" do? Is my country really filled with horrible people?

I choose to keep believing that it isn't, but it's getting harder each day to keep that belief in check.  This past weekend a bunch of us from work lent a hand to Habitat for Humanity to work on houses for deserving families. Seeing all of us working together for something good helps, but there are so many people out there who would gladly destroy all that good.... it's disheartening.

Plus, they didn't let me use a nail gun, can you believe that??!!?? Oh, yeah, probably a good idea, right?

Feeling very melancholic this afternoon.  All of a sudden I've started thinking about stuff I usually push to the back of my mind and ignore.

I've had great results with the migraine situation, the course of magnesium supplements I have been taking and having deleted all the prescriptions that made me crazy, mean and nasty out of my routine. I'm just heartbroken that my behavior while I was taking them was so bad that, last Fall, I alienated and lost someone who was so important to me.

It sucks to reconnect with someone from your past and have them not reconnect with the "real" you.  Does that make sense?  My intentions were good, my choices to be proactive, smart and safe made a lot of sense, but the results were disastrous.

I know I've apologized before and sound like a broken record, but this weighs heavily on my mind.  I try not to have regrets, but I have them.

If you're reading this, once again, I'm sorry. Maybe one day we'll be able to hit the reset button and try getting reacquainted again.

Crap, my Fit Bit just buzzed to harrass me into walking 250 steps. Gah!