The countdown is on and I'm really freaked and stressed out.

I take my next licensing exam this next Saturday and I'm not at all confident that I'm going to pass.  I've been studying a lot since January 28th (when I got my online access), but nothing seems to be sinking-in.  Every time I open the book and start-up the online lectures, it's like the first time I'm hearing/reading it.  Yesterday alone, I studied for about seven hours.  Today will probably be about the same, then Monday through Friday I'll spend each afternoon/evening taking the online final exams.

This thing is at the back of my mind all day, every day.  I always think I should be studying, so then I get stressed out when I'm not. My friends know I have problems sleeping and this hasn't helped.

It's been tough studying for the exam, plus learning a new job and trying to get every day stuff done.  It turns out that I was supposed to have been able to study at work for at least an hour each day, but I didn't find out until after we were well into March. Plus, with the folks I work with, I wouldn't have had the chance anyway.

I need to pass this exam for my job, so I hope that, when the time comes, I'll be able to pull the information out when I need it and that this time next week I will have my new license.

Fingers-crossed!!!

I got up early this morning, stripped the bed and got the laundry done. Like I said, every day stuff doesn't stop just because I have an exam.  I still have to put clean sheets back on the bed, once I have aired the mattress out, folded the clothes I got out of the dryer, put everything away.  Then I will crack the books.

My place smells like Gain from all the clothes I have hang drying all over the place. It smells good.

Once I'm done with this test, I really need to deep clean my apartment. It's gross here. Plus I have things I need to return to the outlet mall. I should probably look at the receipt and see how long I have. Either that or I have to lose a bunch of weight to fit into the pants I got. I hate that stores aren't consistent with their sizing. And I hate the fact that I'm fat.

I feel scattered! Sorry if this post was disjointed.