It's been a hectic few weeks and I've been in a bad mood for most of it.

I'm exhausted by the fact that it is such a rare thing for me to see people being kind (or simply nice) and not self-centered. "It's all about me-me-me and I don't give a shit about anyone who is not me or how my actions will affect (effect?) anyone else". It's all such bullshit.

I'm also exhausted from being taken advantage of.  I'm not always successful, but I try really hard to be nice, patient, flexible and kind. Before I react to things I try to stop and imagine myself in the other person's position and then take a deep breath and respond/act. I try not to say the first thing that springs to mind and really attempt to help the person and do what needs to be done.

I'll be the first to admit that this isn't my natural go-to behavior and I don't always succeed, but I try really hard to cut other people some slack before I get short with them (and let one of my famous "fine" or "whatever" out). I try to remember that me being nice to them could possibly do some good and maybe, just maybe change that persons attitude and they might be nice to the next person they deal with. I'll take the hit if it helps the next person.....

I think I need to stop that shit and start acting like everyone else.

But I probably won't. That's "Ms. Doormat" to you, thankyouverymuch.