Today is shaping-up to be one of those days.

I had to get-up early (again) to go check my bosses house before work (so I'm tired), it turns out I'm wearing one black sock and one blue sock for the second day in row (I guess the pair I pulled out this morning exactly matches the pair I wore yesterday), I hurt my back sleeping (getting old sucks) and I had a bloody nose when I got to the office.


A couple of observations.....

1.) I remember being on a date once and the guy I was with mentioned in passing how awful he thought runners were.  At the time, I thought it a rash comment, but now I'm kind of in agreement.  The only change I would make to his comment would be to add cyclists to the group.  The guy I was on the date with lives in the area I have to drive through to get to my bosses house and I don't think I fully comprehended what he went through with runners until I had to go through it myself.  Let me tell you, the runners and cyclists are always out in DROVES in that area.  CROWDS of them.  They don't care that cars have to share the road, they do what they want.  Forget it if you need to turn right and a bunch of them swarm around your car, traffic will just have to back-up behind you until they decide to go on their merry way.  They even do it in the dark early morning!  Do they know that it's hard to see them in the dark?  Some have dim flashing lights, but they are still difficult to see and because they have those lights on, it seems that they feel it gives them a free pass to be pretty careless when it comes to what they are doing.  As the driver of a car, it's my responsibility to read their minds and anticipate what they are going to do next.  On Saturday I had to inch by two older guys running on a particularly curvy part of Sunset where there was no sidewalk or protected lane for them to be in.  It was scary.  I'm super-cautious when it comes to runners and cyclists, so I end-up running behind schedule.  I'm all for fitness, but there has to be a better, safer way.

2.) Do the families that have those car decals showing stick figures of each member of their family (and, in some cases, pets) and their names know how stupid that is? Think about it, by having that information on the outside of your car, you just gave any twisted insane criminal all the information they need to know to really do your family harm.  I see a lot of those decals when I'm stuck in traffic on the way home and I always wonder if the parents thought anything beyond "How cute this is, it's just like our family!".  They even come in zombie stick figures for the hipster families out there..........

End of observation section. :-)  I'm sure I'll have more later.

Update from my last few posts - As you can probably tell, I'm still being a doormat (I know, you're not at all surprised). I'm definitely unhappy about certain things right now.  I need to make some difficult changes, but I'm not sure how to go about it. It's scary and I feel kind of isolated.  I've asked some friends of mine for help with those certain things, but that hasn't panned out yet.  I feel like I'm on a fast-approaching deadline and I'm getting kind of stressed-out.  I need advice, but I'm not sure who else to ask.  It is NOT life-or-death stuff, so don't get all freaked-out for me.

I wish someone would just swoop in, give me some sound advice and help me make some decisions.  Does that happen outside of the movies?

Being an adult sucks.

It's been a hectic few weeks and I've been in a bad mood for most of it.

I'm exhausted by the fact that it is such a rare thing for me to see people being kind (or simply nice) and not self-centered. "It's all about me-me-me and I don't give a shit about anyone who is not me or how my actions will affect (effect?) anyone else". It's all such bullshit.

I'm also exhausted from being taken advantage of.  I'm not always successful, but I try really hard to be nice, patient, flexible and kind. Before I react to things I try to stop and imagine myself in the other person's position and then take a deep breath and respond/act. I try not to say the first thing that springs to mind and really attempt to help the person and do what needs to be done.

I'll be the first to admit that this isn't my natural go-to behavior and I don't always succeed, but I try really hard to cut other people some slack before I get short with them (and let one of my famous "fine" or "whatever" out). I try to remember that me being nice to them could possibly do some good and maybe, just maybe change that persons attitude and they might be nice to the next person they deal with. I'll take the hit if it helps the next person.....

I think I need to stop that shit and start acting like everyone else.

But I probably won't. That's "Ms. Doormat" to you, thankyouverymuch.