Looks like we're meeting at EC's in a bit. The good part is that Mexican food and margarita's sound really good right now. The crummy part is that a bus drove by while I was waiting to cross the street and I have 20 mins to wait until the next one!

I had my EIGHTH package of the year stolen from my apartment building hallway last night.  That kind of stuff never happened to me at other apartment buildings! This one was another Christmas gift I was going to give to my mom. At this rate, I won't have any money left to get her anything nice!

So frustrating.

Bring on the tacos and margarita's!!!! 15 more minutes until the next bus......

I know I've been terrible about posting, sorry!

It turns out the migraine I mentioned in my last post wasn't a one-off, stand alone occurrence.  Instead, it lead to me having cluster migraines (look them up if you aren't familiar with them, please) over the past few weeks.  They've been horrific. I went to the doctor to try and get either an injectible prescription or a nasal spray prescription (it's impossible to take a pill once a migraine has started), but only one comes in either form (Imitrex) and I can't take it as it makes me sick.

My doctor (and, coincidentally, my father...who also suffers from migraines) suggested that I get Botox injections as a preventative treatment. I got a referral to a neurologist, so I just need to try and set-up an appointment.  I've called a few times, but haven't been able to get through to the scheduler.  I've been extraordinarily fortunate enough to be pretty much wrinkle-free thus far, so I find it odd that I may be getting Botox shots.  My dad has said in the past that, while the shots didn't eliminate his migraines altogether, they have been life changing. Dude,  I just hope they work and that my insurance covers them. I'm tired of feeling shitty and on the verge of being sick!  Wish me luck!

Apart from being out of commission in a darkened room, throwing-up and wanting to die, I have only managed to do one thing over the past month. That was helping my friend with the grand opening of her store.  It was a blazing hot day, but I got to see folks I used to work with. It was a fun experience. Sam and I are trying to plan getting together for cocktails this Friday at either EC's or someplace up by them (I'll stay the night if that's what we do).

Work has been good.  The office has closed early most fridays, which is pretty sweet.

Can I say that I can't wait for this election to be over? The whole thing makes me feel gross.

That's about it for now. Gotham has jumped up on my lap and needs some attention....

This is probably going to sound dramatic-- I know, I know, you're thinking "Dramatic? Robin? Nooooooooooooo", right?

So, anyway......I feel pretty terrible about last week. Emotionally and physically. Last Friday morning I woke up to some really crappy news in the mail, then when I went to get into the car to go to work, it started making a new noise (that didnt sound good at all), when I got to work, everyone was in a bad mood (I mean EVERYONE), some things I had lined-up and ready to go, ended-up not being ready to go and then everyone left early, but I had to stay late.  Everything that could go wrong, went wrong.

After work I had plans to go out to dinner and to a concert. I feel terrible that my mood was so crappy going into it. I was doing my best to try and change it, but not having much luck. The thing is, I was so focused on trying to improve my mood that I didn't realize what was really going on with me.

My normally acute sense of smell was stuck on hyperdrive. When I got into the car to go to dinner, I could smell everyone and everything that had ever been in the car and it was making me nauseous. I felt like I should have been wearing sunglasses as the sun was still so bright. A bus was next to the car and the sound of the air brakes felt like it almost ruptured my ear drums.  I'm trying to hold a conversation while all this was going on. Asking questions, answering questions, etc. trying to focus, but not having too much luck. I feel really bad about that. I mean, REALLY bad.

We got to the restaurant and it was really nice and the food seemed to be very good. I was going to order a cocktail, but something in my head told me to get an iced tea. The craving made sense later on, but I thought it was kind of weird at that moment. I tried to eat, but only managed a few bites. It was good, I just couldn't eat. The atmosphere of the restaurant was calm and soothing. Very nice.

When we were done with dinner, we walked over to the concert hall for the show and the smells, sights and sounds started bombarding me again. Not the music, but the audience surrounding us. Arguments, bad breath, B.O., everything.  Once the house lights came down, it got better.  The music was amazing. I'd really been looking forward to this show for weeks. It was an historic concert and I'm grateful I could be there.

After I got home, I pretty much went straight to bed. At 1:17am I woke up thinking my head was going to explode, rushing to the bathroom to be sick. I knew it wasn't food poisoning since I hadn't really eaten much. Of course, after a few minutes I realized it was a migraine. One of the worst I've had in years. If you have never had one, I guess there is no way you will understand. You probably think they are just bad headaches, but they're not. You get to a point where you want someone to come and shoot you in the head to put you out of your misery. I was at that point for most of the weekend. The thing is, once they hit, unless you have an injectible prescription, a melt prescription or an inhalant prescription, it's too late to take anything because you can't keep it down. I don't have any of those three, so I was out of luck. The only time you feel a tiny bit better is right after throwing up, but it starts up again within a minute or so. Sleeping in a dark, cool room seems to be the only thing that you can do. Sometimes a cold bath helps, not always though.  Two straight days of vomiting, crying and wanting to die (no food, only water), then another two-three days of slowly starting to feel better. In all, 5 days of being out of commission.

Looking back over the day, I should have seen the signs: heightened senses of smell, sound and sight, edgy temperament, the craving of the iced tea (caffeine is a vasoconstrictor and an ingredient in my migraine medicine), which explains why I felt a little better leaving the restaurant. The weird thing is, usually when I have a migraine coming on, my pallor changes, my temperature drops a little and my pupils change. None of that happened this time.

I tried to apologize at one point or another to everyone I may have been rude or "off" to. Most everyone knows me and understood. I'm so fortunate to have people in my life who care enough to realize what was going on, cut me some slack and not get mad. Just about everyone said something to the effect of "I knew something was going on, you weren't your normal self, it's okay".

I finally felt back to normal on Wednesday. Just in time to get ready for everything I have to do this weekend. I had a bunch of things I was supposed to do last weekend that are pushed to this one, so it's going to be a little hectic.

I'm glad I'm feeling better though. I really do appreciate it when I don't feel crummy.

So, on Friday I drove for 8 hours, covered about 500 miles and arrived at my parents house exhausted! Luckily, I was able to leave work early, so I got to their place at about 7pm.

I had a really good time with my folks. I was able to relax a little and catch-up with both of them. I was sad to leave this morning.

Today it was a repeat of Friday, except I pulled away from their house at 6am and got home at 2pm.

I have to say, I went a different route to their than what I usually take, and I live in a truly beautiful state. I haven't driven up by Mammoth in over 20 years and the parts north of there in about 40 years (when I was a kid). It brought back so many good memories.....and maybe an itch to go camping.  If I do go camping, I'm not gonna be doing the driving any time soon, lol! It will take a while for me to recover from this!

The only really shitty apart about this different route (apart from the desert part) is that there are a bunch of areas that the speed limit goes: 70 65 55 45 35 25. And you can't speed! I saw tickets being given all along the way. It's hard to slow down that fast, especially when there are big trucks on your bumper!

I was told on Friday, before I left work, that they wanted me to go to a new office tomorrow and help train people. I wish it could be Wednesday instead, since that guy I work with that's been out of the country is due back tomorrow and we had a meeting scheduled....that's not going to go over too well!

Now, I'm gonna lay around and do nothing.

Work has been good. After a few difficult encounters with a guy I work with who is a jerk, my boss  agreed that it would be best for everyone involved if we didn't have anything to do with each other any more (he's on the other side of the office and needs to stay there!).  Sooooo, now I almost never see or talk to the asshole now. No more abusive or inappropriate comments from him, hooray! It's been so nice not getting angry and having to hold it in anymore, lol.

One of the other guys I work with has been out of the country for the past couple of weeks, so I've been watching his book of business and taking care of his clients while he's been out. It's been really stressful, but good. The downside is that, by the time I get home from work, I'm usually dead and drained. It's been early nights to sleep after a cocktail most evenings!! He's due back next week sometime, so I'm looking forward to that.  

I've wanted to call in sick a few times since that guy has been out of the country, but I've had to suck it up and come in to work so I can look after those clients, plus I had a few really big meetings last week and one more tomorrow that I've had to attend, as I'm the reason the meetings were able to be set-up in the first place (yay for me).

I don't know if I'm getting sick or if it's allergies, but I've been having to take my migraine medication like it's candy and have added allergy stuff to the mix over the past couple of days. My head feels a little better, but it's like I'm always on the verge of a full blown migraine, which is physically exhausting. My back has been hurting too. I think I retain a lot of my stress in my back. I had a masseuse tell me that once, so it must be true, right? Maybe I can book a massage one of these days. I got a pedicure this past weekend when I went up to visit a friend and I was really disappointed. I paid extra for a good foot massage and she only spent a few minutes on them and she even hit the bottoms of my feet a few times! Who does that? That hurts, that doesn't feel good!

I'm a mess!! (Nothing new there, right?)

I spent some time this past Saturday with a friend who lives out in the IE now. I haven't seen her in a while since she lives so far away, so it was nice to spend time catching-up. We went to dinner and the movies and had a good time. I was thinking about it, and this year is the 25th year we have been friends. It just doesn't seem right that I'm old enough to have had friends for that long,

Fingers-crossed I can leave work a bit early Friday as I have a LOOOOOONG drive planned that day. I'm not looking forward to being in the car for hours on end, driving while I feel shitty, but I'm looking forward to the trip. Again, gotta suck it up and get shit done. 😀

Hooray! This fucking crummy week is over!!!  Today seemed to take forever to pass!

Apart from getting my annual blood work done tomorrow, I think I have a pretty free weekend, which I'm excited about. I think I may meet some friends at LACMA tomorrow to see an exhibit that ends this weekend, but I'm not sure I can make it back to that side of town in time. Hopefully we can go to lunch afterwards if I can't get there when I need to.

I'm really hoping it's cooler this weekend, so I can go through my bookcases, cupboards and closets to clean things out without getting heat stroke. It's been so hot the past two months, I haven't gotten anything done around the apartment. The dresser and hope chest my dad brought down are still in exactly the same place they were put in the living room when he dropped them off. Although, everyone knows it's super-classy to have a dresser in your living room, as long as your cat lounges on top of it (as mine does) so maybe that should stay where it is. Ha!

I also want to try and make it to Ulta and Target, for purely selfish reasons of course!

Jeez, crummy day today. I really hope tomorrow is better! I couldn't sleep, so I've been up since about 2am.  I had to go into work early for a deal that was going to price and everyone seemed to want to be an asshole all day long.  At one point, I just got up and went to the ladies room to wash my hands and take some deep breaths. I didn't want to say anything I might regret!!!

I think I'm going to sit on the couch and have a cocktail.  Maybe more than just one...