This is probably going to sound dramatic-- I know, I know, you're thinking "Dramatic? Robin? Nooooooooooooo", right?

So, anyway......I feel pretty terrible about last week. Emotionally and physically. Last Friday morning I woke up to some really crappy news in the mail, then when I went to get into the car to go to work, it started making a new noise (that didnt sound good at all), when I got to work, everyone was in a bad mood (I mean EVERYONE), some things I had lined-up and ready to go, ended-up not being ready to go and then everyone left early, but I had to stay late.  Everything that could go wrong, went wrong.

After work I had plans to go out to dinner and to a concert. I feel terrible that my mood was so crappy going into it. I was doing my best to try and change it, but not having much luck. The thing is, I was so focused on trying to improve my mood that I didn't realize what was really going on with me.

My normally acute sense of smell was stuck on hyperdrive. When I got into the car to go to dinner, I could smell everyone and everything that had ever been in the car and it was making me nauseous. I felt like I should have been wearing sunglasses as the sun was still so bright. A bus was next to the car and the sound of the air brakes felt like it almost ruptured my ear drums.  I'm trying to hold a conversation while all this was going on. Asking questions, answering questions, etc. trying to focus, but not having too much luck. I feel really bad about that. I mean, REALLY bad.

We got to the restaurant and it was really nice and the food seemed to be very good. I was going to order a cocktail, but something in my head told me to get an iced tea. The craving made sense later on, but I thought it was kind of weird at that moment. I tried to eat, but only managed a few bites. It was good, I just couldn't eat. The atmosphere of the restaurant was calm and soothing. Very nice.

When we were done with dinner, we walked over to the concert hall for the show and the smells, sights and sounds started bombarding me again. Not the music, but the audience surrounding us. Arguments, bad breath, B.O., everything.  Once the house lights came down, it got better.  The music was amazing. I'd really been looking forward to this show for weeks. It was an historic concert and I'm grateful I could be there.

After I got home, I pretty much went straight to bed. At 1:17am I woke up thinking my head was going to explode, rushing to the bathroom to be sick. I knew it wasn't food poisoning since I hadn't really eaten much. Of course, after a few minutes I realized it was a migraine. One of the worst I've had in years. If you have never had one, I guess there is no way you will understand. You probably think they are just bad headaches, but they're not. You get to a point where you want someone to come and shoot you in the head to put you out of your misery. I was at that point for most of the weekend. The thing is, once they hit, unless you have an injectible prescription, a melt prescription or an inhalant prescription, it's too late to take anything because you can't keep it down. I don't have any of those three, so I was out of luck. The only time you feel a tiny bit better is right after throwing up, but it starts up again within a minute or so. Sleeping in a dark, cool room seems to be the only thing that you can do. Sometimes a cold bath helps, not always though.  Two straight days of vomiting, crying and wanting to die (no food, only water), then another two-three days of slowly starting to feel better. In all, 5 days of being out of commission.

Looking back over the day, I should have seen the signs: heightened senses of smell, sound and sight, edgy temperament, the craving of the iced tea (caffeine is a vasoconstrictor and an ingredient in my migraine medicine), which explains why I felt a little better leaving the restaurant. The weird thing is, usually when I have a migraine coming on, my pallor changes, my temperature drops a little and my pupils change. None of that happened this time.

I tried to apologize at one point or another to everyone I may have been rude or "off" to. Most everyone knows me and understood. I'm so fortunate to have people in my life who care enough to realize what was going on, cut me some slack and not get mad. Just about everyone said something to the effect of "I knew something was going on, you weren't your normal self, it's okay".

I finally felt back to normal on Wednesday. Just in time to get ready for everything I have to do this weekend. I had a bunch of things I was supposed to do last weekend that are pushed to this one, so it's going to be a little hectic.

I'm glad I'm feeling better though. I really do appreciate it when I don't feel crummy.

So, on Friday I drove for 8 hours, covered about 500 miles and arrived at my parents house exhausted! Luckily, I was able to leave work early, so I got to their place at about 7pm.

I had a really good time with my folks. I was able to relax a little and catch-up with both of them. I was sad to leave this morning.

Today it was a repeat of Friday, except I pulled away from their house at 6am and got home at 2pm.

I have to say, I went a different route to their than what I usually take, and I live in a truly beautiful state. I haven't driven up by Mammoth in over 20 years and the parts north of there in about 40 years (when I was a kid). It brought back so many good memories.....and maybe an itch to go camping.  If I do go camping, I'm not gonna be doing the driving any time soon, lol! It will take a while for me to recover from this!

The only really shitty apart about this different route (apart from the desert part) is that there are a bunch of areas that the speed limit goes: 70 65 55 45 35 25. And you can't speed! I saw tickets being given all along the way. It's hard to slow down that fast, especially when there are big trucks on your bumper!

I was told on Friday, before I left work, that they wanted me to go to a new office tomorrow and help train people. I wish it could be Wednesday instead, since that guy I work with that's been out of the country is due back tomorrow and we had a meeting scheduled....that's not going to go over too well!

Now, I'm gonna lay around and do nothing.