I'm confused these days. My instincts are usually fairly accurate (not anywhere near perfect, but sometimes accurate). I'm not sure how to feel, so, of course, I end-up feeling terrible. Which I do right now.

I had a birthday recently and, weirdly, this year was better than what I've experienced in a long time.  Even though I just started my job, most of the folks at work who found out either gave me a card or a gift. It wasn't necessary, but it touched my heart. One of my brokers brought me breakfast, took me to lunch AND (the best part) smoked me a rack of ribs and gave me beer to go with it.  I'm really not into gifts or money, so the fact that he spent time and his immeasurable talent, making food for me honestly made me tear-up. I was, and still am, deeply touched.

Tonight I went out with Samantha and David for dinner at EC's. Danny (bartender) flirted with me, which was nice since I feel fat and old. The drinks and food were amazing.

I may be old and single (old maid, party of one), but I love my friends.

I am truly fortunate.