I'm sitting in the Reno/Tahoe airport waiting for my flight back to LAX. I was supposed to land at 5pm, but the flight is delayed a little bit. Hopefully I will be home by 7pm. I've taken tomorrow off work, so at least I don't have to rush around when I finally do get home.

Christmas was nice. As usual, my parents were way too generous with the presents. I'm very grateful to have such wonderful parents. I only wish I could have gotten more into the holiday spirit. I tried, I really did, but I just couldn't shake this damn melancholia I've been stuck with for the last, oh I don't how long it's been. Bah.

On another note, I've decided to make a few changes at work. I need to find out what I can and cannot do, but I decided that I'm no longer going to kill myself to please people when, in the end, they just don't care and it doesn't make any difference anyway. Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to do my job and I will continue to do it well, but I'm going to go about it in a different way.

I wonder what kind of damage Gotham did to the apartment while I was away? Did he try to eat my Christmas trees? Probably. 'Cause they're there.

Ack. The gate is starting to fill up. I have a good boarding position, but that's not for a while and it seems like all the passengers with kids are drawn to me and I'm surrounded!

I watched the Christmas Doctor Who episode. I liked it a lot, even got a little weepy. I miss the Christmas episodes involving battles over London, but I guess Moffat always goes in a different direction. Last year was off Earth as well.

I hope this entry doesn't jump around too much. Since I'm typing it on my phone, I don't have the option of going back and editing like I usually do.

Oh yeah, before I forget, if I didn't get you a Christmas card, I apologize. I got really sick the weekend before Christmas and was in bed just about until I left for Reno Thursday morning. I only sent out one card via the mail, and that's it. I didn't even get my parents cards. Don't even ask me about shopping, I didn't get any done. I feel really bad about that. REALLY BAD.

I can't wait for 2011 to come to a close. I'm hoping that all the crap that's happened over the last 14 months will finally be over. I have never had such a horrible time on all fronts. Not one aspect of my life was immune. Home, health, work, relationships, friendships, financial.... everything. I have to keep hope that things will turn out as they should, as I hope them to that is. I have done my best to deal with everything head on and I've tried to keep a good attitude. Fingers-crossed it pays off. A friend of mine, who has gone through her own nightmare this year, told me "Robin, you're a good person, you care about others, you always put everyone else's needs and feelings before your own. That will come back to you in ways you've never imagined". I almost started crying! Seriously. I dearly want things to go my way for once. It's been 14 months of everyone else getting ahead. 14 months I've been made to feel that I'm not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, healthy enough, dedicated enough..... It has to come to an end soon, right?

Ok, I'm done with the "feeling sorry for myself" part of this entry. It's "suck it up Robin and just get on with it time". I don't usually have New Years Resolutions, but I think I will this year. For one, no matter how much it hurts, I'm going to try to get back into comics. I'm going to try and start painting again. I may even start back up with my writing. I put the paints and writing away a long time ago. I lost my confidence. Now I think I'm just going to do them purely to do them and the feeling I get when I create something. Maybe I will take a cooking class in a new kind of food I've never prepared before? Lot's to think about. I'll let you know what I decide on.

Oh hey- I saw the new Sherlock Holmes movie this weekend. The movie was good and Stephen Fry was sublime. I hope there's another one.

Shag's website is having a sale. Ah to dream if all the pieces I would buy if I could afford them. I might be able to replace all the Alex Ross prints I took down in February. I can't believe it's been that long! You shoul see what I put up in their place. I'll take a picture and post it here. It's an odd collection of photos, prints, pictures, etc. All carefully chosen to cover all the holes and damaged I caused hanging the Ross prints. :-) I'm not very good at hanging pictures. You need two people I guess.

Well, I'm off to get away from these babies and the girl next to me eating Cheetos with her mouth open.

Good Times.

Thanks for everything you guys. I know I don't say it enough, but I appreciate you all.

Robin

BAH, these winds have kicked-up my allergies and I'm miserable.  I tried going in to work this morning (when the dumb, yet really cool gusts were at their height), but bailed after about 45 minutes.  Since it was still early, I was able to get the same parking space I vacated earlier..... where there are no trees or structures to fall on my car, should the winds start up again.

I can never get used to being home during the day when I should be at work.  Gotham doesn't seem to mind my being home though (as he just walked in, jumped up and plonked himself next to me).  At least someone cares, even if it is my cat.  Here he is (below).  The photos are a little washed out because the sun was shining through the window and I used my phone.  He's still handsome though.

It's been a few weeks since I blogged, but there hasn't been much going on.  The holidays have been quiet and uneventful so far.  Is that good a good thing or a bad thing?  I don't know. 

Work has been really busy.  Still in the internal audit mode.  Being out today is going to set me back a little on what I need to do this week, but I'll manage.

Man, I'm bored.  There's not much to do around here, apart from normal chores and I don't think those will help my allergies.  I guess I could glue the hand back on to the musical Frank Sinatra Christmas ornament I have.  I wonder what kind of glue I should use?  He looks weird without one of his hands and it's creepy to see a disembodied hand holding sheet music sitting on my shelf.

Wow, I'm uninteresting today!  Should I even mention that I have to walk over to CVS after 3pm to pick up a couple of prescription refills?  I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the excitement.

What's on TV today?  At least this time (unlike my last sick day) I have TV to watch.  In fact, my crappy TV in here died a few weeks ago, so I had to get a new one.  It's bigger than the other one and it's flat,  but, to be honest-- I liked the picture on the old one better.  It was a good set!  It lasted 10 years and cost more than the one I just bought.

Well, back to the boredom and checking my Ebay auctions.  Don't be too jealous.